It seems as though every couple months i find myself back here. I guess when you dedicate so much to a hobby or a habit, it really does stay with you longer than you realize. This site has always meant alot to me. There is something therapeutic about putting your hopes, fears, and frustrations into literature . And despite how somber this entry sounds, I still plan on doing so. I'm just checking and I hope I 'll get a chance to wite up a btter entry on what I'm thinking about or what I've been up to.

1. I love dying my hair different colors and getting haircuts. I guess I don’t like the same style for very long.

2. Even though I love many movies, JAWS is still my favorite movie since I was 12 when I first saw it and I don’t see it being dethroned anytime in the near future.

3. Every Time I have Smartfood popcorn, I will proceed to be sick until I throw it up. No matter how little of the amount I have.

4. For the last time, I DIDN’T come out to California to be in the “Movie Biz” or to “Make It Big” unlike 90% of the people who did come out here. I came out here because…. I still don’t know why exactly but what’s done is done

5. I wouldn’t have made it as long as I did if it wasn’t for the generosity of not only my loving family but also my friends/roommates’s loving family

6. Ever since I graduated from High school, My musical taste has gotten broader and more involved and now I look back at some of the stuff I used to listen to and laugh.

7. My love for Music is one of the few constant things in my life like the love I have for my family.

8. I have gotten back into comics over the last couple years and I do believe that graphic novels and Trade paperbacks are the wave of the future.

9. I still don’t have any idea what I’m doing or what I’m going to do.

10. About 5 months ago I went on a diet and I went from a 38 waist to a 34 and I’m still technically on a diet consisting of starving myself, Low Carb/No sugar Energy Drinks, No Soda, and my sit ups and push ups.

11. One of the things I hate the most is the feeling of being judged by someone who has a “I’m better than you” attitude.

12. Even though Arclight cinemas isn’t necessarily the best job, I have nothing but gratitude towards it because of all the cool people I met there that have turned into good friends. With the exception of a few people, It took me two years to really find some good friends like them.

13. Yes. I drink. I like the taste of beer and the mix of flavors in a mix drink. I don’t drink to forget or to drown my sorrows. I don’t drink so I can feel something. I drink because I like the taste and the feeling of hanging out with good people having a drink.

14. I don’t smoke pot or do really anything outside of drinking. I never had a desire for it and I don’t think I ever will. I get creeped out if I just take sleeping pills.

15. One of the biggest and only regrets in my life was how I didn’t take college seriously. I failed because I never went to class. I wish I could go back and not fool around. I do believe that things would be a lot different but sadly I was just too immature back than to care.

16. There are days when I feel like I abandoned everything in CT for no good reason. Like I left them before I could get hurt by them leaving me. It’s like some weird Freud like theory that I tend to blow off as bullshit.

17. I LOVE my Green Lantern tattoo and I can’t wait until I go back home so my cool brother in law could draw another one on me. I’m thinking something to do with music or another symbol that stands for something cool.

18. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time and I do get the feeling that I have a mild case of Sleep Apnea where that is you have trouble or even stop breathing while you sleep. It would explain my snoring and how I can get many hours of sleep but yet I would still be tired and the constant nose bleeds.

19. When I was an Infant I had an accident where a piano seat fell and broke my nose and I almost died and that is what I think is the reason for the problems I have breathing while I sleep and nose bleeds.

20. I’m just going to come out and say it… I’ve never had a girlfriend or in that sense I have never had sex so therefore I am a Virgin. Its not by choice.. well some choice because I didn’t want to sleep with someone I wasn’t attracted to or I didn’t have enough spending money to put towards a call girl. Its because for years upon years I had no self esteem or confidence in myself. Being in California and on the diet has giving me some perspective and some confidence/self esteem but sadly it took 23 years for me to get it

21. I have made truly great close friends through Xanga and the internet in general and despite never meeting them or knowing what they’re actually like. I hold their friendship and advice in the utmost high regards. It has a “outside looking in” kind of perspective with their advice but most of all They are awesome.

22. I don’t have a car but I do have a bicycle which I love riding for the exercise and just the overall quickness of it all. I do admit my little Saturn that I had to get rid of before I moved out to CA. The bicycle is another thing I thank for helping me loose weight through the exercise of riding it 6 miles to work and then 6 miles back.

23. In general, I think I have more perception of what’s real like. I guess this is a result of some other things I’ve mentioned like less insecure and more world-worn or how I’ve become less tolerant of certain things but then again I may have changed in ways I haven’t realized yet and some are illusions of change. I guess Ill never truly know.

24. I do really enjoy cooking up recipes and what not. The turkey I cooked up for thanksgiving was possibly the tenderest and delicious turkey I have ever had.

25. For some reason, Electronic devices hate me and almost self destroy themselves after a little while of me using them, unlike the earphones I go through like water because I fall asleep wearing them while I listen to music